It's all about the attitude

I've been thinking a lot about attitude and reaction. One of mybiggest conclusions has been that I am responsible for them. I know most of you are saying "Well duh," but hear me out. How many of you are like me and have felt offended? Or bored? Or disinterested? Those are what I'm talking about.

It all comes down to choice. I choose to be offended. I choosed to be disinterested. Granted, somethings are easier to take offense at, but in the end it's my choice. This means that being offended can even be a sin. Man have I failed if that's true. This means being aloof is a sin, again, guilty. Geez, this is a nasty train of thought, really. But it's only logical. If I am responsible for me, despite all the influences and temptations, then I am responsible for my emotions. God has called me to love, therefore anything other than that such as anger, offense, resentment, disgust, are lack of love. Not obeying God, i.e. loving those around me, is sin, so those poor attitudes are sin. Makes my whole teenage years look like a cesspool, doesn't it? And it's not like I'm doing super well at the moment either.

What it all boils down to is I'm responsible more and more for myself. The deeper my spiritual walk gets, the more I realize how awful I am. Funny isn't it? The closer to God I get, the more astute my sense of just how screwed up I am gets?